life ;
has its ups and downs ,
but why does it seem like mine is always down ?
even when its up ,
its just for a short instance ,
and the next thing i know ,
its down again ,
right before i can react to it.
well ,
i've tried to make do with life the way it is ,
but it just keeps getting worst .
even when it gets better ,
the next day it will still go back to the same old routine ,
something is always bound to push me back down.
what i really x understand is ; why is it that im always the one ? why is it always such a coincidence ? why is it that someone can twist the story so perfectly and push all the blame to me ? why is it i have to put up with all the pretendence ? why is it that no one will be there to listen ? why is it always that it ends this way ? why is it when i start to trust someone , it just backfires ? why , why why ?
hmmm .
life will never be perfect.
life will never be how i want it to be.
no one can live in harmony ,
no one can shudd their mouth up and diam,
no one can just stop gossiping bout others just for one day ,
no one can do al this ,
no one can answer all my whys.
all i want now is ,
to finish up my trials ,
finish up my SPM ,
get out of this school ,
get to know new awesome peeps ,
never look back into the pathetic meaningless high school so-called 'awesome' life ,
i want to move forward,
i want to live happily !
is it so hard ? :(
no matter how hard i try ,
no matter what i do ,
i still get back the same treatment .
so , why should i even bother !
hmmmmmm.
people say humans change ,
but the logic is , who don't ?
who'll remain the same as one was a few years ago ?
but before saying others changed ,
why not look at yourself first ?
didn't you changed even more drasticly ?
promises.
are made to be broken.
are made to hurt oneself.
are made to lie out of a problem.
are made to make one happy for a moment.
are made never to be true.
why bother maing promises when you can't keep them !
smiling doesn't mean im happy ,
it's just a form of concealing the sadness inside.
NATT. ice creamm & rocky sticks are my awesome buddies . i wish to be a SUPERGIRL someday . i want to fly up to the sky and reside in the clouds .
READ IF YOU WANT , SCRAM IF YOU DON'T.
