30.10.10
omgg. i totally NEARLY DIED. IT WAS JUST A MATTER OF A SPLIT SECOND. it all happened at 11 plus pm. anna was driving while chris sim and me was talking in the car. we were turning at the corner and 'BANGG' the impact was so strong i got shifted from the left side to the right. the car just totally drifted so badly that if it went up the curve , we might have turtled and go straight into the big drain . and by that time , we might have been dead or maybe badly wounded. but thank god for his protection upon us and kept us save . the car just stop right before it went up the curve. i was so stunt. anna was traumatised. badly . but chris sim seem to enjoy it. he said he thought anna was drifting. -.- overall , everyone is fine and maybe just a little stunt and trauma-ed after what has happen. hmm , still feel a little giddy now. but it will all be fine after a sleep.
after what has happened , i think back and thought that if i really died at that moment , i would have regret alot of things that i have never done or answered. the first thing i would regret is not treasuring the people i love more . not giving the best of me to everyone. not being a good daughter. and maybe this was a wake up call to me. to treasure those beside me more. life can be lost in just a split second . anything can happen , at any time of your life. so , treasure what you have or you may lose it the next. i really thank god for his protection and maybe , this awakening call.
just to let you know ; i still love you.
28.10.10
dilemma of which to choose ? lol.
physics-ing now. geez. i totally forgot every single thing i read about the other time. which spells one word ; DIE. lol. i shall just read what i can for now and a PASS would be fine for me. lol. i did lots of silly mistakes for biology today as i really couldn't focus well. hmm. shall not let the same thing happen in my physics paper tomorrow. i shall do my best and buck up for the sake of my physics teacher and my parents. (: tomorrow is going to be so awesome. after tomoro , only 3 MORE , YEAPP , 3 MORE PAPERS TO GO , and im free. for two months. hahahaha! im so happy. lol. i can't wait to go out with buddies and just laugh my time off instead of poking my nose into my book like now and end up having pimples all over. geez . i just simply hate exams ; the source of pimples. lol. tomorrow i can finally REACTIVATE MY DEAREST FACEBOOK WHICH I HAVE BEEN AWAY FROM , FOR THE LAST 2 WEEKS. WOAHH , AMAZING ?! lol. and i earn a meal. great . (: and when a sorry could help to mend all things , is it so difficult to say a simple 5 lettered word ; S-O-R-R-Y. aww , i think i won't get to sleep so early as i haven't finish studying. geez. i simply hate burning the midnight oil. but what too do. well , last day of it. and i can sleep like a log and let's hope i'll never wake up to my senses. x need to look at my flunky results , no need stress , no need disappointment and most importantly , NO TROUBLES .
FREEDOM , HERE I COME !
27.10.10
add maths today ; paper 1 was awesome. but paper 2 was like OMGG. but overall , i just want to pass . lol. tomoro having biology , oh my love. (: let's hope what i study will pop out then . can't wait to finish off all my exam papers and get a life. lol. SCORE HIGH FOR BIOLOG Y , FINISH OFF THE PAPERS ; & KICK SOME ASSES . :3
well , now how does it feel to be blame for something you've never done before ? how does it feel for being the only one to be blamed over something that you did not do ? how does it feel when the one you trysted most turn back and doubt you to the max ? if there's no trust , what will be of something that you hold on for so long ? what will be of the trust you once have ? what if its all gone because of a certain person ?
the only solution - take it down , and let go.
COUNTDOWN ; 5 MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM .
26.10.10
exams recently , feel like killing myself so much. hard hard hard. its so hard i can faint right away. the true colours of everyone is shown during the exam. that 's what i hate about it. hmm. let's just hope everything will be fine. (: let's do it wheyy ! jiayou. only 9 more papers to qiongg. (:
5.10.10
oh my dear sis , i miss you so much ):
4.10.10
i wish upon a star ,
that i would fly up high ,
that i would have wings ,
that i would be a little kid again ,
that i could have true friends ,
that i could be cheerful ,
that i could be the one i used to be.
1.10.10
if only i could turn back time ,
i would not do the silly things i did before.
if i could turn back time ,
i would not have let you go .
if i could turn back time ,
i would not be the one doing meaningless things now .
if i could turn back time ,
i would not let you go .
but now ,
you've left.
& time can't be turned back.
if i see you ,
i'll be yours.
imissyousomuch.
