sometimes , i really detest myself so much. ttm. i hate it when people break their promises made to me. yet , i , myself break the promises that i made time and again. and this time , it caused me a best friend , a real true friend who will always stand by me , help me and care for me. ONE WORD , one word was all it takes to break a bond of friendship . sometimes , i really , seriously think im a jerk. as in , real jerk. hmmm. i wonder time and again why did i said it , when i x really mean it. hmm . i realy suck to the max. maybe like what my friends say , y life can totally be summarized into one word . which is ; WRONG. my life is totally messed up. thanks to my stupid bossy attitude , stupid character , always taking things for granted and stupidness in everything. but sometimes , i really x know how to express my thanks , care or concern via words or actions. sometimes i will make people misunderstand my intentions. but they really mean no evil. i always say the things i x really mean. i x mean to hurt anyone from it. seriously. i know you've forgiven me a thousand billion times when i make you angry but i always get angry at the slightest thing you do that mean no evil. i know you always give in to all my request yet i always want things to go my way. you've always mean me well yet i always thought you meant otherwise and scold you. i took everything you ever did for me for granted and never ever really treasure it. now , i finally throughly screw everything up. totally did. no matter what , you'll still me my best girl-friend ever. forgive me one last time , will you ? one more chance,

im sorry ! truly sorry. ):

fml.