13.4.10
i seriously don't know what's going on man, my life seems so topsy-turvy now.
eveything doesn't seem in place.
last night , i just teared and i just had to let it out. cause if i don't i don't know what will happen.
er jie went back to kl and that means im alone. and i feel so stressed up at school. i x wanna be in science stream anymore. its so stressing. ):
sometimes , i just don't understand why must there be so many obstacles when im just trying to lead a simple and happy life. i may have change but its the circumstances that changed me. i x wanna change , but i have to grow up cause im 16 and i must grow up and not be a willy-wally baby anymore.
i just smile on the outside , but frankly , deep down , im suffering.
soon , it will breakdown , one by one.
but im a strong girl , i must be one.
im gonna go through this and come out as a all new grown up 16 year old.
i have to be strong and not a weakling , i have to.
when circumstances come into your way , use it as a chance to grow up , not a chance to give in and lose hope.
maybe i really have to do so.
i gotta wipe all my tears and face what's prepared in font of me.
im going on , going on , till the day i truly breakdown.
dear lord ,
would please help me get through this ordeal and just be by my side ,
i lay my trust in you and i will never waive away.
i will continue to trust in you for you are a marvelous god.
i thank you for everything you have given to me.
amen.
